Drawing the line 3

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, these last couple of days. Well, as much thinking as possible considering I’ve been getting about five hours of sleep a night and work is slowly consuming my brain, my soul, and probably my major viscera. (But hey, workshop day is tomorrow! Then I get to relax have ...

Career Choices: Why I’m Not an EMT Any More 9

I don’t think so many people know this any more, but I used to be an EMT. Years ago, I volunteered for an all-911 service while I was working full-time at another job. I formed some bizarre and possibly valuable habits during that time. It’s the reason why my initial reaction to any kind of ...

Still Not Going to See Ender’s Game: Separating the Art From the Artist 3

Orson Scott Card would like us to be tolerant of his anti-gay marriage views, now that we’ve won. The point is, apparently “moot.” I call bullshit on that one.  DOMA may be dead, and the language of that decision may be what will make the rest of the dominoes fall, so to speak. But the ...

I will never be beautiful 9

I will never be beautiful
I will never be beautiful. I’m not saying this because I want or need reassurance. It’s the knee jerk reaction, and I understand that, when someone sounds like they’re feeling down about themselves. But I’m not feeling down about myself, and I don’t think reassurance really works, for all its good intentions. I’ve spent my ...

Suicide is cheaper 4

A lot of you may not know this, but I used to be an EMT-B. I volunteered on a 911 ambulance service, and spent most of my time running out of fire stations in Commerce City. Commerce City (aka Combat Shitty) is an industrial area of Denver where there are a lot of poor and ...

Stop calling me a "real woman"

Because you know what that implies? Are there really femmebots out there, complete with boob guns that make up the category of “not real” women? Are there girls made out of plastic? Is there a test you have to take, or are there government regulations sort of like they have for beef that mean we ...

Losing weight sucks 4

I’ve been meaning to write about this for a while, but I’ve been putting it off. It’s tough to write. Anything about weight and self-image and societal bullshit is kind of destined to be. Over the last two years and three months, I’ve lost about 75 pounds, going from 270 to 195. I’m now back ...