Something I haven’t done for 15 years. 6

Some of you already know this story, I’m sure. In high school, the one and only sport I could do (being a chubby nerd who couldn’t even run a quarter mile) was weightlifting. And I was actually good at it, which was the crazy part. I’m basically built like a draft horse, so for me lower body strength is where it’s at. Squat was my big event.

About fifteen years ago was the last weightlifting meet that I did, for State. In the weight room I’d done squats close to 300 lbs before, so that’s where I was headed, just working my way up to it. On my second squat  I was well over my body weight (I want to say somewhere in the neighborhood of 250 but you know how memory is) and I dropped under the bar. I think my back gave out, because I’ve always had a problem squatting low without starting to bend over. So I hit the mat with both knees and the bar still on my back and then my right hip went out.

So yeah. That was basically when I stopped doing squats. Because it scared the shit out of me that badly. And to this day, that’s one of the root causes of the problems I’ve had with my knees.

Well, hell with that. I’m tired of being scared of it. It’s not like the bar is going to jump off the rack and attack me. Or that’s what I told myself when I decided today, I was going to do it. Hack squats with a machine just aren’t as good. And the rack at the Fitness 19 has these nice things you can hang on it so if you do drop the bar, it’ll get caught before it utterly destroys you.

But I’m not going to claim I wasn’t kind of scared, going in. I did a couple practice squats with just the bar, to make sure everything was okay and see how low I felt safe going. Then I threw a pair of 45s on the bar and gave it a shot.

Damn, I forgot how much I hate having that stupid bar sitting across my shoulders. Ugh.

But I did it! And my third set I upped the weight to 155 and was still all right. I can’t go competition low any more, but that’s fine. I’m not competing with anyone but myself these days. I don’t have to be scared of the stupid bar any more. I’m taking my event back.

It feels good. (She says, gleefully thinking about just how sore her quads are going to be tomorrow.) You didn’t beat me, fear. It’s fifteen years later, and I’m going to win this thing.


6 thoughts on “Something I haven’t done for 15 years.

  1. Reply Chelsea Conlin Mar 22,2013 16:32

    That’s awesome. :) I’m glad all your joints held up! I guess it was more of a mental thing than a physical limitation, huh?

    • Reply Rachael Mar 22,2013 16:35

      Maybe! I mean, my knees were definitely not wanting to go as low as I would have liked, but I’m hoping building the muscle back up will also help them out. But it’s definitely the mental game first! I was too scared to even try.

  2. Reply Emily Mar 22,2013 16:53

    you go girl!

  3. Reply Keeley Pollock Mar 22,2013 18:05

    You can do it Rachael! C’mon, just one more…. !
    *snickers and runs away*

  4. Reply Keeley Pollock Mar 22,2013 18:07

    And what she doesn’t mention is that she got 2ed place (I think) in state for the heavyweight division even after hugging the mat and scaring the shit out of me. ^^ I may have bragged about you once or twice.

    • Reply Rachael Mar 22,2013 18:08

      This is true, I did get second in my division at that meet. And our team (which you were part of!) got first!

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