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Zeno’s grant proposal

I’ve got one last class I have to complete in order to graduate, though at this point it appears I’ll be technically graduating in the spring of 2013 rather than this semester, just because I don’t think I’ll be able to defend until January. But this class will be done at least, and all will be ready to go.

For this class, we had to write a practice NSF proposal, 10-page limit with an additional 1-page summary. Mine ended up being about 3000 words. This is also the most difficult 3000 words I’ve written in my life. I ended up with a four page reference list containing 36 references, and spent nearly three solid weeks driving myself batty writing it and tweaking it and formatting it and everything else.

So it’s come as a major relief for me to hear that the other grad students all hate their proposals just as much as I hate mine, if not more. This thing was starting to feel like Zeno’s Proposal, where it was physically impossible to ever quite finish it. But hey, if everyone else loathes their proposals, then I’m probably okay, right? Right?

I’m just glad the damn thing is turned in and out of my reach. I can’t imagine having to write these constantly and facing the ugly fact that only 10-25% of them ever get funded. So it’s probably a good thing I’m not staying in academia. One day I’d be found dead at my desk, having cut my own throat with a handful of reference pages cunningly fashioned into a blade.

I celebrated finishing the proposal and turning it in by buying a new desk that I can sit or stand at. Maybe this is how adults do things. Ice cream would have been cheaper and potentially more satisfying.

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What I did with my day.

Today I turned this:

Into this:

Using these tools:

…four times. Six to go. And then they’ll be ready for XRF analysis, which will tell me what mean annual precipitation was in that location nearly 54 million years ago. 
This is the exciting part of science they never show you in the movies. 
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Grad school update

This is hopefully my final semester of grad school. It’s a scary prospect. I have to take a class this semester – Paleoclimate – which is thankfully relevant to my thesis.

Oh yeah. My thesis. That.

You know, the other little thing I have to accomplish this semester.

I was freaking out about it yesterday, because it feels enormous and terrifying. I handed all of my samples over to be processed in May, but various delays mean that I still don’t have any lab results from them. With graduation deadlines giving me the fishy stink-eye, this is not a comfortable place in which to be.

I met with my advisor and I feel a lot better now. The content of my thesis isn’t as terrifying and huge as I was afraid it might be. I went over with her exactly what I’m expecting to have as far as parts to the thesis, and it sounds like it’s a good amount of data to weave together. I already have an idea of how I can organize it all so it makes sense.

Even better, there are things I can be doing with it right now. You know, instead of writing a blog post about it. I’ve finished my stratigraphic columns for my two cores, so I can describe them, write about my methods, go over the facies I’ve chosen, and pick pictures for illustrations from both the cores and my thin sections.

So yay, I can get to work! It’s just writing. That should be easy, right?

Right?

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Read one of my stories!

Last year Anotherealm bought one of my short stories, and now it’s published online and available for reading! Go here!

I was a bad girl and worked on doing some queries and such today instead of doing my geochemistry homework. Geochemistry this semester is looking pretty interesting, though. The class is actually focused on marine geochemistry, where we use chemicals to make rocks yell HOORAH which is pertinent to my own research since the ocean is very involved in the carbon cycle, and climate. And thus, very involved in climate change.

I’m also going to be doing a one hour independent study this semester, as long as the paperwork went through. I need to learn about paleosols in thin section anyway, so that’ll be the aim… research micromorphology and then apply what I’ve learned to thin sections that Mary has from two sites in the Bighorn Basin. I’m pretty excited about that. I just need to get someone to show me how to use the automated stage on the microscope in the sed lab. Or tell me where the left occular for the other microscope’s gotten to. Because trying to use a binocular microscope only looking through one eyepiece… it started doing funny things to my vision after a while.

So expect some pretty pictures of paleosol thin sections at some point in the near future! (Near future meaning this semester… as was pointed out to me at Skepticamp, geologists need to qualify what we mean when we say things like “quick” and “soon.”)

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School’s Out All Summer!!!!

DONE WITH GRADING DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, other than the grading, I had way more fun teaching this semester than I did last semester. Probably because I like sed/strat WAY more than I ever liked mineralogy. Hopefully everyone had a reasonable amount of fun with it. Though the one problem with teaching a class that I really enjoyed when I was an undergrad is that I wanted all of my students to just love it as much as I did… and of course, that’s not going to happen. Some geologists are sedimentary people, some just aren’t.

I’m already working to improve the assignments and materials for next semester, since no matter what I’ll be teaching this lab at least once more. One of the harder things I’m trying to do is develop a grading rubric for one of the major projects, since I think that’ll help me grade, and also help the students figure out exactly what I’ll be expecting from them. I ended up using the rubric for grading this semester, but only as a very fuzzy guideline where I erred on the side of being nice. It seemed to work out mostly, but I’ve got to do some fine-tuning before next spring. Which really means doing it some time this week, before all the motivation gets sucked out of me.

One thing that’s really starting to drive me nuts is just how many points get lost over students just not reading the directions, or not answering the actual question that’s asked, or things like that. And I always feel just a little guilty, taking points off if something is done in pencil instead of pen, but then again, damnit, I said on multiple occasions that it needed to be done on pen.

Though I feel less guilty for deducting points for the assignment being handwritten instead of typed. My eye strain on all the terrible handwriting makes me feel much, much less charitable.

But anyway. That’s pretty much done with teacher stuff for the semester. Grades have been sent off to my advisor, and all that’s left is a bit of cleanup. I think I did pretty well for my first semester on this class – next spring ought to be even better!

And many thanks to Loki, who helped me in this time of great stress by laying on top of the papers and refusing to be moved.

Also, my friend David seems to have a blog now: Unintelligently Designed, which wins for its name if nothing else.

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One Down, One and a Bit Left…

Today was officially my last Petroleum Reservoir Characterization class and the final project is out of my hands, so that’s that. It’s been an interesting class, but between wrestling with Petrel and wanting to stick my head under a pillow and scream every time I have to read about geostatistics, I’m pretty sure I don’t want to go into reservoir modeling when I grow up. But it’s certainly given me an appreciation of just what it takes to do that sort of job.

What I have left now is my last Facies Analysis project, which is ticking along quite nicely. Today I did a rough description of the last core, though I’m going to give it a pretty strict second pass through. This core and I are not getting along well, which I find strange since it’s from the Almond formation, which is the same formation as the Stagecoach Draw cores. I loved those cores to bits when I looked at them as an undergrad, and have still found them quite loveable while inflicting them on the current class of sed/strat undergrads. They’ve got the same lovely black lagoon shell that’s laced with oyster shells, even.

As weird as it is, I think I just don’t like the Almond core because:
a) It’s in a different sort of box, which makes it harder to look at the cores without pulling them out.
b) There’s a ton of swelling in clays in the upper part of the formation, which means all of the mudstone is covered with a crackly gray skin of clay. And if you want to look at those core sections, you have to clean them off thoroughly (in the process covering your hands with deep gray mud) and then look fast, since they get their clay skin back as soon as they dry off.

But I’m almost done. There will not be pictures of this core, though, since it’s not very pretty and I’m not getting along with it. I do have pictures of the Williams Fork core I just finished looking at. I’m hoping to post those for anyone who might be interested, but I think I want to check with my teacher first to make sure it’s okay to do so. I don’t see why it shouldn’t be, but my grad bff is doing her thesis on that core (and a few others) and I don’t want to risk stepping on toes or messing anything up.

But anyway, that ought to all be done by the end of the week, if all goes well. Though I unfortunately won’t actually be done then – I still need to finish grading! The Stagecoach Draw core projects are stacked in the plastic crate next to my desk, glaring at me accusingly because I’ve been too chicken to even look at them thus far. Once I get this last project done, though, I’ll be out of excuses and I’ll need to get started on them. Particularly since I need to have grades turned in as soon as possible next week.

And then I’ll be done with my second semester. This one’s gone better than the first semester… and has been a lot less stressful. But I’m definitely looking forward to the summer!

Also, from the department of It’s The Little Things: When you e-mail someone and specifically mention that your advisor is female, it’s pretty sad when the reply steadfastly refers to said advisor as male.

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From the Department of Squee

First, huge congratulations to the amazing Stuart Robbins, who kicked butt at his dissertation defense and is now… Dr. Robbins! YAY STUART!

In personal squee news, I just found out I won one of the department research awards! So I get money to go toward my BBCP project, which at this point I think will be going toward big girl scientist grain size analysis, which involves – rather than a microscope or screens – a very fun-sounding piece of equipment called the Mastersizer. (No, really.) YAY GRAIN SIZE!

And tomorrow is the Colorado State Science Fair, so I will be up in Fort Collins all day looking at the projects of budding young scientists. I even get to be the co-captain of the Earth Sciences junior division team. YAY SCIENCE!

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The Bighorn Basin Coring Project

From mid-July to the beginning of August, I’m going to be outdoors, in Wyoming. No, I’m not crazy. Yes, I have a good reason for doing this. Because in the summer, that’s when we’ll be coring through the Willwood Formation in the Bighorn Basin. And this is a big deal.

The Willwood Formation is about Eocene in age, and sits on top of the Paleocene Fort Union Formation. The Willwood Formation is mostly a lot of paleosols (lithified soils) and river sandstones. And more importantly, the sediments that form these rocks were laid down during the Paleocene-Eocene Thermal Maximum, and then the later, smaller thermal maximums during the Eocene. As a quick summary, taken from a thesis proposal I’ve been using in order to beg for money1:

The sedimentary geologic record can be used as a window into the past conditions of the Earth, including the climate in which sediments were laid down. In the Cenozoic, there are many examples of shifts in global climate. Potentially significant to the modern climate in which humans live are the hyperthermal events that occurred during the Eocene. Hyperthermals are relatively brief (~100,000 years) warming events that coincide with the release of massive amounts of carbon from terrestrial reservoirs. The most well understood of these hyperthermals is the Paleocene-Eocene Thermal Maximum (PETM), which occurred 55.5 million years ago. During the PETM, 6,800 Gt of carbon were added to the shared carbon pool of the atmosphere and ocean, and global temperatures rose 5-9° C (Sluijs et al. 2006, Zachos et al. 2008). Slightly more recently (53.7 Ma), the Eocene Thermal Maximum 2 (ETM2, also called ELMO) occurred. ETM2 is about half the size of the PETM isotope excursion (Lourens et al. 2005), and generally much less well understood.

This project is a big deal, for several reasons. Just to start, coring is not a cheap process, and this project is funded by a pretty major grant from the NSF. But what’s more important is what we hope to learn from the cores. The PETM is of great interest to climate scientists and geologists right now, because it’s perhaps our best historic example of what humans are currently doing to the planet. There weren’t a bunch of little proto-horses in the Eocene burning oil so they could roar around in ridiculous cars, but it was a sudden, rapid surge of carbon being put in to the atmosphere, even if the source is being debated.

This is important because, no matter how many people2 in the world are short-sighted and basically sticking their fingers in their ears and shouting “Lalala can’t hear you” every time someone brings up this science, that doesn’t make it any less real and pressing.

The paleosols, which are what I’m mostly interested in, can tell us a lot about how the local climate shifted in response to the PETM. This is important, since most human beings have a vested interest in their local environment not suddenly changing and, say, making it impossible for them to grow food. Also, one of the cores will be through the ELMO thermal maximum, which I think will end up providing a valuable set of comparative data. There’s already some pretty robust data for the PETM in the Bighorn Basin, and the cores will give us even more. If we then compare that data to what we come up with from ELMO, that may give us a sense of just how far a local environment will shift pushed by how much carbon – because it may not need an input as big as that in the PETM to really mess things up.

Hopefully, that’s enough to get you interested! The BBCP has a facebook page now, here. When we’re actually coring during the summer, there will be a blog for the project hosted by Smithsonian, which I’ll link to when it’s up. I’ll also no doubt be blogging about it here, and I think I’m going to be responsible for tweeting about it as well.

The coring is going to run from July 13 through August 8. I’ll probably be on the rig from July 19 through the end of the project, since I’m going to try to go to TAM before I head up to Wyoming. I’ll also be on the night shift the whole time – coring is a 24/7 process – so I guess I’ll be documenting BBCP – After Dark3.

Once we’ve got our cores, we’ll actually be sending them out of the country (since this is a project with multinational investigators!) to Bremen, Germany. They’ll be living at the Marum core repository, which is also where all of the Integrated Ocean Drilling Program cores go. That means in January 2012 (if I can find the funding for it!) I’ll be heading off to Bremen for three weeks of intensive core prep, description, and sampling.

And then, science! Lots of science!

Year two of grad school is looking ridiculously exciting.

1 – It’s a time-honored scientific endeavor. I wish I was joking when I say that.

2 – Here, I use the term people in place of the perhaps more true but less polite term: idiots.

3 – I actually volunteered for this. If you knew how badly I sunburn, you would understand why. I also don’t like the heat, and it’ll be much cooler at night.

References
Lourens, L. J., Sluijs, A., Kroon, D., Zachos, J. C., Thomas, E., Rohl, U., Bowles, J., and Raffi, I. 2005. Astronomical pacing of late Palaeocene to early Eocene global warming events. Nature, vol. 435, p. 1083-1087.

Sluijs, A., Schouten, S., Pagani, M., Woltering, M., Brinkhuis, H., Sinninghe Damsté, J. S., Dickens, G. R., Huber, M., Reichart, G.-J., Stein, R., Matthiessen, J., Lourens, L. J., Pedentchouk, N., Backman, J., Moran, K., and and the Expedition 302 Scientists. 2006. Subtropical Arctic Ocean temperatures during the Palaeocene/Eocene thermal maximum. Nature, vol. 441, p. 610-613.

Zachos, J. C., Dickens, G. R., and Zeebe, R. E. 2008. An early Cenozoic perspective on greenhouse warming and carbon-cycle dynamics. Nature, vol. 451, p. 279-283.

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Emerging From Under My Rock

So, where have I been since Thanksgiving? The easy yet melodramatic answer is: in a black pit of horrible despair. Really, I just mean that I was working on an intensely awful end of semester group project, which I was having to spend over twenty hours a week on. With the other end of semester goings-on, it meant that I spent several weeks where I didn’t get to see my friends and barely got to see my husband while he was awake. There was other awful drama connected with it that I’d rather not go in to now; let’s just say that I’m glad I survived it without ending up in jail.

Thankfully, that’s all done with now! WOO! I survived my first semester of grad school. I have been assured by many friends that grad school is normally not quite this horrible, so I’m going to try not to worry too much about next semester.

The last thing I did in the semester was actually write a paper for sedimentary petrology. That was actually a lot of phone, particularly when compared to the soul-destroying awfulness of the group project. I enjoyed spending time with my thin sections, and it also means I’ve got a new round of photo micrographs to share! The ooid grainstone micrographs are cooler looking than the lithic arenite, though I think the diagenetic history of the lithic arenite is more interesting. But that’s because sandstones tend to be a diagenetic nightmare.
Lithic arenite photo micrographs
Ooid grainstone photo micrographs

Now that school’s done with until January, I’m hoping I can manage to get some writing done. I’ll also be in England from December 23-January 1, since Mike and I are going to see his family. There’s a lot to look forward to this vacation.

Other things:

I love my Senator. Mark Udall, I mean. Bennet, well, the best I can still say for him is that at least he isn’t Ken Buck.

Tron: Legacy was a fun movie. Don’t bother seeing it in 3D, in case you’re one of those people that actually likes the 3D thing. It’s great in 2D, and I have it on good authority that the 3D really doesn’t add anything. If you want something deep, it’s not the movie for you, but if you want lightcycles and Jeff Bridges being stoner!God, it’s a great time.

My parents gave me a Galaxy S as my early (and only) Christmas present. I am deeply in love with my amazing phone, and am greatly enjoying the fact that I no longer have the most pathetic phone out of all of my friends.

There is now a Jack’n’Grill by my house. We went there yesterday and the food is fantastic. It’s also huge. We didn’t realize until we got there that it was the home of the seven pound breakfast burrito once featured on Man vs. Food. The rest of the food is in keeping with that. You can’t get a burger that’s smaller than 10 ounces. But it’s 10 ounces of pure awesome, that’s for sure.

Yesterday Kat came up to hang out. During the afternoon we worked on some writerly stuff. The end result is that I sent out five query letters to agents. I am both excited and terrified about this. I hope the rejection callouses that I’ve built up over the last nine months with my short stories will help me in this process.

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CRUNCHsquish goes the cockroach.

So yeah. That was one of the highlights of my day. And by highlight, I actually mean OH GOD WHY. As I was leaving the geology building to head home after sequence stratigraphy, I decided to hit the bathroom. Except the doorway of the women’s room in the basement was guarded by an enormous cockroach. It was at least the size of a cocker spaniel.

I was planning to just slink quietly away and use one of the restrooms on the upper floors, where the cockroaches have at least had the good taste to remain hidden. Instead, one of my mineralogy students popped up and informed me that I should squash it, since I was wearing real shoes and he was wearing moccasins. I made gagging noises to signal my disagreement. Part of this is because I’m too soft hearted to even squash most spiders, and part of it was because I couldn’t begin to imagine what it would feel like to try to step on a bug that size – what if I only wounded it, and made it angry? What if it had a knife?

So then he told me to give him my shoe. Which I did. And he slammed it down on the cockroach. Twice. Then ground it in to the floor, at which point it made that awful CRUNCH noise that almost made me gag.

And then he threatened to wipe the bottom of my shoe off on my shirt sleeve before giving it back to me.

My students. They really know how to ingratiate themselves.

I ended up using one of the other bathrooms anyway, since I didn’t want to go near the gross, squashed cockroach. Gah.

Other than that, decent enough day. Had my weekly meeting with Mary, discussed some basic isotope geochemistry for the PETM and I think I understand at least the broad strokes of it okay. I also asked her if there was much on the petrology of the basin, and it turns out there is basically nothing. I have to see if I still like thin sections by the time I’m done with this sedimentary petrology class, but it sounds like there might be a good opportunity for a project there if I can find money to have approximately a bajillion thin sections made. Also talked to her about masters versus PhD, since I’ve started wondering if I made a mistake just applying for an MS. Apparently that’s something that can be changed pretty easily mid-stream, so I’m going to stop worrying about it until I settle on a project, at which point I’ll see if the scope of that project is more suited to an MS or PhD.