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Destiny Lore Wishlist

Well, since I apparently had success back in 2018 when I spoke my Saint-14 conspiracy theories out into the universe, here’s some other things I’ve been thinking about and going on at length at my friends about, particularly when I’ve had something to drink. And since I was recently reminded that this is my blog and I can write whatever dumb stuff that no one else cares about I want here, let’s do this.

Ana Bray, if that is your real name

Not going to lie, I really hated Ana when she was introduced in the Warmind expansion. I’d like to believe it’s not a gamer-with-internalized-misogyny issue and more because the writing in that expansion was embarassingly terrible, and Ana became sort of the figurehead of that. I’ll freely admit that there’s something about the combination of badass hunter plus computer super hacker plus know-it-all about the Hive that really annoyed me. But the thing that annoyed me far more was that… look, the whole interesting thing about Guardians who are basically zombie space wizards is that they’re totally different people from who they were during their first life, even before they start developing the weird indiosyncrasies that come with being effectively immortal and no longer afraid of death, but rather curious and experimental about it.

Now, I get that some Guardians would be really, really curious about who they were when they were alive. That’s only natural, and actually a really interesting character and story feature, I think. (Insert me bemoaning the lack of tie-in prose fiction here. Because honestly, Bungie, what the hell.) But Ana’s journey is in my estimation the least interesting way to go about it, particularly how it was set up in Warmind. Because Ana basically goes to Mars, finds out that she apparently she still has all her super duper old computer skills, and… that’s kind of it?

She’s at least gotten more interesting in Shadowkeep, as she continues to dig into her past and discover that past Ana Bray was really not a good person. (Head scientist/engineer of a massive technology corp conducting unethical experiments. Who’da thought.) Her blind faith in Rasputin is at least a little more interesting because Rasputin is getting a chance to show himself as a being with his own goals, which he may or may not be sharing, as opposed to the sort of gee-whiz girl-and-her-dog effect in Warmind.

But honestly? Still don’t buy it. The one and only Ana Bray gets brought back as a Guardian and just so happens to figure out that’s who she is and remains a total whiz kid? Pull the other one. It’s got bells on.

My conspiracy theory I’ve been nursing since Warmind is that Ana Bray isn’t actually Ana Bray. Rather, she’s someone related or otherwise genetically similar enough that she could unlock all the right doors. Someone desperate enough for an identity (because being a Hunter wasn’t enough, for whatever reason) to go looking. And gullible enough to be the perfect tool for an extremely cunning, intelligent, and patient super AI who needed some human hands to do his bidding. After all these centuries, Rasputin finally found the guardian with the right combination of biology and neediness and made himself a puppet so he could start getting put back together.

Which is not to say I’m on the “Rasputin is evil” band wagon. Rasputin is Rasputin. Hopefully he’s on our side. But he’s getting everything he wants right now, and Ana is also helpfully talking Zavala around, the guy who was the most paranoid about the Warmind.

Anyway, I like Ana way better in this season than I ever liked her before, and the lore’s making her more interesting. I’d just like her even better if she was more… “Ana.”

Eliksni

Not a conspiracy theory. Pure wish list item here. But goddamn I want to see the Eliksni get to be Guardians again. Or at the least, I want some solid, prominent allies. We’ve got Mithrax and the House of Light. We’ve got Variks and his plans for House Judgment. Neither of them want to kill all humans. And yes, I know Mithrax has decided that humans deserve the Traveler (and depending on what kind of mixed blessing you think it is, that becomes a pretty loaded statement) but it would be just the kind of douche move we’d expect from the Traveler to decide that now that there are Eliksni that no longer want it, it’s coming back for them. Of all the non-humans in Destiny, the Eliksni have the most potential to get to be all kinds of different things, because they’re not dedicated servants of the Darkness (unlike the Vex or Hive) and they’re much more likely to want to live their own lives and make peace than the Cabal. They’re just people who got seriously fucked over by the Traveler running its happy little ass away, and they weren’t lucky enough to have a Rasputin on their side at the time. There but for the large number of guns wielded by a scary AI goes humanity. There’s a lot of really cool, meaty story stuff that could happen if a solid, real alliance (not House of Wolves 2.0) got built between the humans and Eliksni, and I want it. And then I want Eliksni Guardians mostly because I want to play one, and I think there’s nothing better for juicing an MMO than giving us another playable race. But hey, I got spoiled by WoW like that.

Calus the Ahamkara

Look, he uses that “O ____ mine” construction several times in the Menagerie. That entire speech pattern was the beautiful moment of “oh SHIT” Forsaken handed us, the clue to what was about to happen to Uldren right before it did. I’m just saying it’s in there for a reason, along with him talking about being imprisoned, etc etc etc. I’m not sure how I feel about there being more Ahamkara lurking around, but it’s not like we dont have plenty of other gross stuff to fight in the meantime. Also, I’m thinking this particular ahamkara is more of a “loser trickster” sort of guy, which is why they’re tooling around on the Leviathan, pretending to be a robot emperor. Just messing with people for funsies. In which case the end game might not be killing them. It could be a lot more fun than that.

I might change my opinion if I ever got to do any of the other raids on the Leviathan, but then again, maybe not.

Uldren

I actually don’t have any conspiracy theories here. I just want to say that 1) I’m mad there isn’t an entire novel about Uldren’s journey as he tries to become a new person while everyone hates his face, 2) I think he should totally be the Hunter Vanguard (don’t @ me), and 3) I think he also totally shouldn’t be the Hunter Vanguard, because if we’re serious about Guardians being entirely new people when they come back to life, then this poor bastard didn’t actually murder Cayde (also don’t @ me).

But please please please let him show up again soon. He’s a drama storm in a cape.

PS: MAKE IT GAYER

Look, we busted our asses to make sure our gay grandads, Saint-14 and Osiris, could have their perfect vacation home. Stop holding back. I’ve got some major Feelings I need to wallow in.

And just, you know. Gayer in general. Trans characters would be A+ too. I appreciated the first “trans” character in Destiny being a literal god, but it would be super nice to have a trans character we then don’t spend an entire raid gloriously murdering.

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writing year in review

2019 Writing Year in Review

Writing This Year

Novels: Have written 40k on one and 70k on another, but none finished.

Novellas: 3 novella-length WFH books

Novellettes:  0

Short Stories: 0

Flash: 1

Paid Nonfiction: Book Riot posts, newsletter

Editing: Several small freelance editing gigs

Consigned to the trunk of awfulness, never to return: None this year.

Best/Favorite story of the year: N/A since I didn’t really finish anything as such this year.

Statistics

Since I stopped doing the magic spreadsheet last year, I’ve decided to try a different tracking scheme. I’ve been tracking raw word count, the number of days I’ve been writing, and time spent on things like editing that are writing tasks but don’t directly generate word count.

Words: 290,850

Time Spent: 115:55 hours

Days Written: 267 out of 365

Obviously I’m not on the “Write Every Day” train any more. Did this work for me? I’m not sure. It’s been a weird fucking year.

Publishing

Queries sent: 5
Rejections received: 3
Pending: 1
Most rejections received: This year, it’s The Devil Squid Apocalypse… which then sold to Giganotosaurus! WOO!
Gross earned: $11,153.59, about $2.5k down from last year. The bulk of this income came from work for hire; I didn’t sell anything that paid an advance this year, and royalties probably amounted to less than $1.3K total.

Published this year:

  1. Wireless and More Steam-Powered Adventures
  2. The Devil Squid Apocalypse
  3. The Stoker and the Plague Doctor in Straight Outta Deadwood
  4. Speculative Fiction on Tap: Romance Takeover Edition
  5. 25 of the Best Sci-fi Audiobooks to Listen to in 2019
  6. Pictures Worth a Thousand Nightmares
  7. Little, Brown to Publish Transphobic Novel That Erases Historical Trans Man
  8. From Audio to Paper: Deciphering Heard Words on the Page
  9. Speculative Fiction on Tap: Winter Books, Winter Beer
  10. One-Nighter Reads

How did I do on last year’s goals?

  1. Get back into writing nearly every day; get writing endurance back up to 1-2k words per day.
  2. Finish novella project and turn it in.
  3. Suck it up, find the money, and put at least the TV pilot script on the Black List. Submit to more contests.
  4. Make an actual effort to find out about work for hire for video games instead of just whining about it.
  5. Work on at least one collaborative project.
  6. Write one novel. Two as a stretch goal, but unlikely with the amount of freelance work I’ve frontloaded with.
  7. Finish editing Flash Memory and make it my agent’s problem.
  8. Read at least 60 books. (I read 63!)
  9. Do the birthday story, as usual.
  10. Do posts on my personal blog more often. My ability to write blog posts has kind of atrophied, and I need to practice it. (And convince myself I have interesting things to say, which is sometimes the harder part.)

Six out of ten ain’t bad, I guess?

Goals for 2020

  1. Figure out how to incorporate writing time into my new work week; achieve an average of 6,000 words per week.
  2. Write at least 3 short stories. (Additional: I really want to write a story to sub to Silk & Steel so one needs to be early in the year.)
  3. Finish both of the novels that I started this year.
  4. Do NaNoWriMo.
  5. Read at least 60 books.
  6. More blog posts.
  7. Refocus on character, character, character.
  8. Put fair share of time in on ongoing collaborative projects.
  9. Spend less time on Twitter.

As always, the challenge for making goals is answering the 3 questions: Is this something I can control? Is this actually achievable? Is this helping me?

Final Thoughts

If last year was a sucky year, this year was… perhaps less personally sucky, since it didn’t involve me having two screws put in my foot this time around. But it was a really weird year. Mostly positive personally, for all the world is a trash fire, but still definitely weird and I’m still trying to figure out how to work things out.

This year, I:

  1. Finished recovering from surgery, got off disability, went back to my full workload with stern warnings from my orthopedic surgeon that I needed to find a new job.
  2. Found a new job that’s a desk job, which also pays much better than my old job… but has a lot less available down time.
  3. This new job pays well enough that I no longer need to scramble for work for hire to cover my bills. So I came to the realization that I can now focus just on my stuff…
  4. Which has also come with the realization that my writing time is a precious resource and I need to be thoughtful about what I use it to write. I still have long term goals about screenwriting, but right now I need to focus on novels. Because hopefully novels will help me get to a place where I can have more time to work on other projects I want. But running around in all directions isn’t doing anything but stressing me out, because I’m doing multiple things halfway instead of one thing all the way.

One year out from 40, I’m still trying to figure out how to configure my life. I’m still trying to figure out who I am as a writer. And looking back on this year, despite the fact that I wrote almost 290K words, I feel like I didn’t do anything. Which is an illusion; I did a lot. I covered student loan payments with my writing. But finishing work for hire stuff and finishing your own stuff feels very different. And I finished damned little that belonged to me this year. I sold very little that belonged to me. It’s difficult to not have a massive internal crisis about this–I am having one, to be frank. Sometimes, I feel like I’ve forgotten how to write. Others, I feel like I am only, to quote, “competent, but unremarkable.” There are obviously far worse things to be, but I’m ambitious enough to want to achieve more.

Next year, I hope, will be different. As always, the solution is to do the work. That is the one thing I can control.

Also, Parasite was the best movie of the year. Pass it on.

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awards eligibility

Awards Eligibility 2019!

It’s a somewhat short list, but I did do some things this year!

Short Stories

The Devil Squid Apocalypse (~7050 words), published on 12/1/2019 in Giganotosaurus

The Stoker and the Plague Doctor (~4600 words), published on 10/1/2019 in the anthology Straight Outta Deadwood

 

Novella

Wireless (~24,700 words), published on 4/15/2019 in Wireless and More Steam-Powered Adventures (NOTE: Wireless is the only story in this collection that had not been previously published.)

 

Fancast

Shaun and Jen are still letting me be part of the Skiffy and Fanty Show, and we’re still eligible for Best Fancast!

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movie thinking out loud

In the Belly of the Beast

Dark Waters is one hell of a movie. In the film sub-sub-genre of “corporate malfeasance thrillers,” it stands apart as singularly gritty, grinding, and unflinching in its refusal to manufacture drama beyond what’s already waiting in the life and death reality of an entire town being poisoned by a corporate giant. It even makes a point of how banal and drawn out the crime and the cover up is; the timeline of the film covers sixteen years on the same case. There are endless scenes of Mark Ruffalo shuffling through paper as Du Pont tries to bury him in discovery, long shots of the countryside, long moments where the characters are silent and contemplative. It’s a massive compliment to the director and the cast that the film is still gripping and upsetting even as it documents the deliberate, foot-dragging slow walk of Du Pont to the court room.

The movie is based on this massively long and horrifying New York Times article: The Lawyer Who Became Du Pont’s Worst Nightmare

And what it’s about is something that is happening, right now and will continue happening throughout our lives because it involves a chemical that the body doesn’t get rid of recently. My housemate is actually a technician in a lab that does water testing; just a few weeks ago she was telling me that they’re working on procedures for testing for PFOS, which is the killing vector at the heart of Dark Waters.

Incidentally, the EPA just set the safe level of PFOS (or PFOA or C-8 as its called in the movie) at 70 parts per trillion or 0.07 parts per billion, which makes the scene in Dark Waters where a West Virginia government scientist says they’re going to “unveil” a safe level of 150 parts per billion after consulting with Du Pont even more horrifying.

What really struck me about Dark Waters is its inclusion of the absolute cognitive dissonance most working people in America–and probably the rest of the world–live with every day. Anyone who has paid even minor attention to the news, to events around them, knows that large corporations are not to be trusted. That pharmaceutical companies actively push addictive medications that have caused an epidemic of deaths. That oil companies knew for decades that the carbon economy that made them rich was and still is causing global climate change. That chemical companies poison towns. That auto companies cover up their unsafe products. And on, and on. We all know these things. We all know that corporations are not looking out for us, never have, and never will.

Corporations do not care about us, but almost all of us are dependent on them in some way for our livelihood. Corporations do not care about us, but we are also aware that we are each a small part of those corporations. We are good people; corporations are run by people just like us, who make decisions every day just like us, and we don’t want to hurt anyone. Corporations do horrible, destructive, deadly things, and by being dependent on them, employed by them, how much of that sin might roll downhill to rest on our shoulders?

That’s what Dark Waters shows us, again and again. When Mark Ruffalo says, without any irony at all, that he’s sure Du Pont will want to know if they find out someone at the plant is doing things wrong. When a resident of the town says that she’s sure her blood test will show nothing is wrong, because “Du Pont is good people.” When the lawsuit against the company makes someone in town angry enough to try to burn the lead plaintiff’s house down, as if they’re the one that’s hurt people, not the chemical giant that’s letting its chemical waste leach into the wells and streams.

All of those moments rang horribly true to me, because I’ve witnessed similar ones every time I’ve worked in connection with the petroleum industry. Some in the industry are dedicated climate change deniers, and I think that’s in a large part because it’s easier than facing the truth that you’ve made a good living by selling the future of your great-great-grandchildren. Some are sure that the ingenuity of humanity will find an exist from this road to hell, and in the meantime, they have car payments. I’ve witnessed people say, unironically, that of course we could trust self-reported health and safety data from a company, because don’t they want to do things right? Don’t they want to look out for their employees?

(And if the company is looking out for their employees, they certainly don’t need a union. Don’t be silly. Just like the company knows its own business better than the wasteful, ineffective, silly government that just gets in the way of progress. Companies can regulate themselves; they don’t want to hurt people, right?)

The level of historical amnesia that can strike anyone when it comes to pursuing their livelihood is breathtaking. It’s frustrating. And perhaps it’s horrifyingly necessary for mental integrity in the modern world. Yes, we know that company cut corners and caused an explosion that killed people, but that was an isolated incident; that was bad people who made mistakes; we’re all good people here, aren’t we?

The greatest horror of all of it is that we don’t have a choice when it comes to participating. The corporation that poisons your water might be the only employer in town. What do you do then? Do you believe the news and still find the strength to go to work, because the kids need to be fed, even knowing that what you’re doing in some way might be killing yourself, killing them, killing your neighbor? And if you quit your job, what then? You still need to eat, and someone else will take your place because they need to eat, too, and the machine will grind on, belching poison into the sky and leaking it into the soil because the primacy of profit is far more reliable in the corporate world than taxes.

Dark Waters is framed as a thriller, but in its heart I read it as a story of existential horror. We all live in the belly of that beast. We all depend on what is killing us in the long term to survive in the short term. The one glimmer of light we’re offered is the fact that we have each other–and maybe that can be enough. That the system is rigged but the fight can succeed, as we stagger over the finish line half dead, the bodies of our friends left where they’ve fallen.

Maybe the greatest lie we’ve ever been told is that there is no escape from the monster that has swallowed us whole. But pretending that escape is easy or painless would be a lie almost as great; we’re not goats trapped in the stomach of the Big Bad Wolf, waiting for a hero to cut him open and release us. The path to freedom will be much more bloody and difficult, and all we have are our hands and each other.

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deep space nine rewatch

DS9 Rewatch: Season 2, Episodes 18-23

Time for more DS9! Starting with Profit and Loss, where we get to meet Quark’s old main squeeze, who happens to be Cardassian. She also happens to be a political radical, shepherding two other politcal reformers on the run from the Cardassian government.

There’s a lot of good character work for Quark, expanding him out past his usual character trait of “greedy.” After scheming and plotting to find ways to make his former lover stay with him, he finally does the noble thing and lets her go. I think this episode also has really great development for the Cardassians as a whole, because it takes them from being monolithic space assholes; it gives their politics a dimension and shows not all of them believe the same things.

But the real start? Our Totally Heterosexual Friend, Elim Garak. This is such a good episode from him… because we find out he’s been exiled, and that he really is serious about his love for Cardassia… and just how much he wants to go home. To the point that he basically allows himself to get played by some Gul you can also tell he hates. Because he wants to believe he can go home. And the conversation he has with Quark that is definitely about fashion is A+… though it’s a shame that Quark ruins it at the end by saying what he actually means.

A+ episode. The only thing I didn’t like is that they gave the two female Cardassians like super femme-y lips, which isn’t a problem of itself, but the makeup just looked really weird and out of place.

Then we get to Blood Oath (alternate title: Grumpy Old Klingons), which has Dax expanding on her connection with Klingons. And it’s got some great trans parable moments in it.

Kor: Curzon, my old friend!

Jadzia: It’s Jadzia now.

Kor: Jadzia, my old friend.

The Klingon s don’t expect Jadzia to keep the oath to go murder the albino guy who killed their kids. (The villification of the albino is not great.)  Where it gets interesting is that Jadzia wants to keep the oath, and she feels obligated. Though she obviously has conflicting feelings at the thought of revenge killing… to the point that she asks Kira flat out how many people she’s killed. (Jadzia, you can’t just do that!) Kira talking about how killing takes a part of you, too, it a good moment for her. This episode is mostly concerned with the dichotomy of the Trill… it’s supposed to be a new life, because you can’t keep paying your old debts, but that doesn’t mean the old lives are easily forgotten. And the parallels between Jadzia choosing to remember Curzon and then also choosing to remind the Klingons of their pasts is lovely, drawing them all into their shared history.

Kang: thank you for saving the death blow for me. You have honored me one last time.

The conclusion is very Klingon, with a high body count. Two of Jadzia’s old friends dead, while the third sings their death song for them. You can’t have a Klingon episode without “It is a good day to die.” Jadzia’s note is very much her own: “It’s never a good day to lose a friend.”

Look, I really love the Klingons, for all their problematic underpinnings. Every time I get to see their culture expanded on a bit and not made a joke, like Kor’s singing, it makes my heart happy.

Also, I really love that this looked like a pretty low-budget episode. All the mooks (didn’t bother Jadzia to mow them down…) are human and it looks like they just rented someone’s house for the day.

The Maquis part I and IIare something I vaguely remember… in that the Maquis were way too politicky for me when I was a kid and this was where DS9 really started losing me. I could certainly do with less of Quark hitting on the Vulcan lady. But the highlight of these episodes for me is Sisko having to deal with Biggest Piece of Shit Ever, Gul Dukat. Sisko loathes Dukat, Dukat is horrible and smug, and they snipe at each other. And then Sisko actually has to rescue Dukat… even as Central Command hangs Dukat out to dry, which is extra hilarious.

Also, there is a lovely moment where Odo is complaining that he wants the power to do more searches and set a curfew, because the Federation have too many rules on him and that’s why he can’t keep the station safe.

Kira: And the station will be just the way it was during the occupation.

Odo: Say what you like. It was safer then.

Kira: Unless you happen to be a Bajoran.

Odo: *awkward pause*

Methinks Odo is sure running the station with an authoritarian iron fist would be great as long as he’s the one in charge.

What makes these episodes interesting is that they introduce a group of humans (and Vulcans, and presumably other normally-Federation aliens) that are definitely not aligned with the Federation–and control enough territory to actually be a political force. There have obviously been anti-Federation societies before, but they’re normally just a colony on a single planet. So adding in another player gives the universe more dimension, just like adding the political dissidents to Cardassia in Profit and Loss. And their political argument is compelling enough that it makes a Federation officer defect to their side.

Not a lot of deep character work in these two, in my opinion, but it’s such a great expansion to worldbuilding.

On the other hand, The Wire is nothing but deep character work.

I love the starting bit of Garak as the literature nerd, talking about the repetitive epic (of which The Never-Ending Sacrifice is the pinnacle achievement) as foundational to Cardassian art… and how different cultures value different things–service to the state instead of individuality. It’s a wonderful little world building detail. Made more wonderful because since this is Garak, there is no way to tell if he’s earnestly giving Julian literature he thinks is great and important, or if he’s doing the equivalent of me handing someone Ethan Frome and claiming it’s a very important classic. The sidebar ends with Something Is Wrong With Garak, to start the whole episode in motion.

Because you bet your ass it’s a Garak episode. And Garak is so intensely Garak in this. So wonderfully terrible and tricky and adamant about the importance of lies. In a way it feels like a riff on Duet, because it’s another story about a Cardassian maybe being someone else, and then again maybe not, but it’s a question of whose soul atrocity lives within. Except this one isn’t a case of closure through punishment and who gets punished, but a question of who Garak is, and what the truth means, and the lies people construct around themselves and what they’ll do to survive all kinds of chronic pain and wrenching cognitive dissonance. (What does Garak actually value as opposed to what he claims to value? What is internal to him as a person and what is imposed on him by his culture? Who did he really betray?) Garak keeps telling different versions of the truth, separating himself into two people, having them play different roles, and each time the story has a different purpose that he’s trying to work on Bashir and himself. And just holy shit, watching Andrew Robinson play so many different versions of his character in so many different emotions is stunning.

Garak: They’re all true.

Bashir: Even the lies.

Garak: Especially the lies.

Garak is still a bad man, and I still adore him.

Last up is Crossover, which starts with Julian annoying the bajeesus out of Kira by being extremely Julian while they’re on a mission in a runabout. Random Star Trek space stuff happens and… MIRROR UNIVERSE TIME!

This one’s fun because it’s not just about humans with sinister facial hair. Instead we get an alliance between the Klingons, Bajorans, and Cardassians that have enslaved the humans in the area. And it’s all Kirk’s fault–by convincing evil Spock to be a less evil reformer, and thus open the Terran Empire up to the alliance. It is just a trip to see Garak dressed like a regular Cardassian and Nana Visitor playing special edition Bondage Kira. I imagine these episodes were just a ton of fun to film because everyone gets to play a complete twist on their character.

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deep space nine rewatch

DS9 Rewatch: Season 2, Episodes 11-17

This group of episodes starts off strong with Rivals in my opinion. There’s not a whole lot of meat to this episode… it’s a standard “Macguffin makes things go wacky in the station and the crew has to figure out the source and stop it”-type episode that doesn’t have any metaplot for meat. But it’s just so dang fun. The macguffin in question is a little toy-like device that alters the laws of probability, meaning people suddenly start having hilariously good or hilariously bad luck. The guest star trouble-maker is Chris Sarandon, aka Prince Humperdinck, and he’s in fine form. He’s a con-man on the take before he gets his hands on the macguffin.

The B-plot is a fun sports rivalry between O’Brien and Bashir… a one-sided rivalry. O’Brien wants to reclaim is space racquetball glory days. Bashir is a much better player than him. O’Brien refuses to give up. Bashir just wants out. It’s actually really fun to witness.

And in the end, the con-man gets conned, which is one of my favorite plot devices ever. I love this dang episode. I wouldn’t want every episode to be like it, but it’s a good break from more serious stuff.

The Alternate is definitely a more serious episode–and it’s all about Odo. Dr. Mora, who was the scientist in charge of Odo when he was found, shows up on the station. Odo’s got a lot of feelings about this that René Auberjonois does really good work expressing, often via long stres.

It’s honestly upsetting to see people misinterpret Odo’s relationship with Dr. Mora as something father-son, and the episode expands and explores that relationship, which is a very uncomfortable one. Odo and Dr. Mora are bound together, but they were scientist and experimental subject, which is a very different sort of power dynamic. They might have some sort of affection for each other, but particularly from Odo’s perspective, there’s plenty of reason to resent Dr. Mora and even feel threatened by him.

The driver of the exploration is a strange volcanic gas that sort of unleashes Odo into an altered, monstrous state when he’s in his rejuvenation cycle–or driven to it by an extreme of emotion. The monster-Odo fixates on Dr. Mora, and while it’s a scary creature, it also becomes very understandable. When Dr. Mora figures out what’s going on, he basically tries to badger Odo, telling him that he’ll be put in a zoo. (Odo’s already been in Dr. Mora’s zoo.) That Dr. Mora is the only person Odo can trust–to which Odo bitterly argues, “Who says I trust you?”

After an episode of Dr. Mora talking over Odo, first almost like a fond parent, then insisting that no one knows as much as he does about shapeshifters (“Except for me,” Odo notes bitterly.) you can hardly blame Odo’s id for wanting to smash him flat. And it takes that level of fundamental anger for Dr. Mora to finally realize that he was not Odo’s parent, but his prison keeper.

It’s such a good episode because it focuses so tightly on the relationship between Odo and Dr. Mora and uses that as a window into both of the characters.

Dr. Mora: You had to speak in a voice loud enough for me to hear.

Odo: I’m sorry.

Dr. Mora: I’m sorry it was necessary.

Armageddon Game is another episode that puts O’Brien and Bashir together. They’re an interesting combination because they’ve got such clashing personalities–and O’Brien will argue with anyone at the drop of a hat. They’ve also got their similarities, being very good at what they do and needing to have something to do that they can pursue. Can’t say this episode is a favorite, but it’s good to see O’Brien getting some development, even if the writers haven’t figured out a damn thing for Julian to talk about that’s not how much he totally wants to have sex with a lady. (Like for goodness sake, watching him natter about space racquetball a couple episodes before felt like a massive change for him.)

Anyway, it’s another stand alone episode. O’Brien and Bashir are working together to destroy some horrible biological weapons at the request of alien cultures that finally have a peace treaty. Right when they’re destroying the last one, some people bust into the lab, shoot everyone, blow up where the weapons are, and O’Brien gets splashed. Then the two of them escape. The aliens then lie that O’Brien and Bashir are totally dead and it’s their own fault. So while the boys try to figure out how to get in contact with DS9, everyone there is feeling incredibly sad–even Quark, in a rare, very genuine moment for him.

We eventually find out that the murder of the scientists and attempted murder of O’Brien and Bashir was orchestrated by both sides of the new peace treaty, because they wanted everyone with knowledge of the biological weapons dead. Which is not what I expected, honestly. But, as that great philosopher Jake Peralta says, “Cool story, still murder.”

It’s an okay episode, but after the incredibly intense character work in The Alternate, it’s a little wanting. It feels like the writers just couldn’t find the same depth in Bashir and O’Brien at this point as they found in Odo, which is a shame.

I do love that Keiko gets to be the one who solves that mystery and discovers the “proof” that O’Brien and Bashir died is bullshit. The bit where she even figures out exactly what O’Brien is drinking by checking the spectroscopic analysis… I wish they gave her more moments like this.

Now, Whispers is another episode that’s definitely my jam. Chief O’Brien thinks there’s some kind of conspiracy going on at DS9, and since the episode is shot very much from his viewpoint, it becomes very evident that there’s definitely something going on in the background. So it’s basically O’Brien becoming increasingly paranoid and then figuring out how to get the hell off the station and go on the run. It’s DS9’s take on The Manchurian Candidate and when we got to the end of the episode I was yelling at the TV because the conclusion was pretty dang fucked up. A+, would watch again.

Kind of hilariously, I found the next episode, Paradise to be just as creepy and fucked up, but in a different way. O’Brien and Sisko beam down to a planet where there’s an unplanned human colony and get stuck on the planet. At first, the humans–who were on their way to a different planet to colonize and got stuck–seem welcoming and pretty cool. Then the leader of the colony, Alixus, starts getting creepier and creepier. She leaves her philosophical writings everywhere, and it becomes apparent she has decided how the community will go and doesn’t want things to change. Alixus doesn’t like doors. Alixus says that everyone agrees to locking people in a hotbox is a totally cool punishment. Alixus has made sure the only thing everyone reads are her philosophical writings. Alixus says they don’t need to have technology even to save someone’s life. Alixus really wishes they’d take off those uniforms and stop talking about Star Fleet coming to rescue them.

Oooh, she is so creepy, and so sure of herself, and so convinced that hers is the only way. Obviously if Sisko doesn’t agree with her shit, he just needs his attitude adjusted with more work. I mean, props to Gail Strickland for playing a character I can hate almost as much as Winn, but being way more subtle about it. My god, her entire speech accusing O’Brien of “wasting his time” trying to get his tricorder to work so he could save someone’s life and making him an enemy that’s trying to destroy the community by challenging what she sees as their righteous way of life. Gave me chills. And that little smile when she puts Sisko in the hot box? Brrrrrrr. (Also, let’s just consider for a moment Alixus, a white woman, locking a black man in a hot box for someone not working as hard as she wants them to. Yiiiiiiiikes.)

Alixus: This is painful for me to. I want so much to give you water. But I can’t without your help.

Hats off to the writers for crafting such a believably abusive and manipulative character. And the thing that’s grossest about it is that if she’d just asked for volunteers for her back-to-nature philosophy wank fest, she would have gotten them. And Sisko points out how people died? “You have no idea how much I suffered, because I watched them die.” The worst part is that she wins in the end–though I will say that about the last two minutes feel like it wrapped up too quickly, too neatly, and I really do not understand why it shook out the way it did.

Also, I need a moment to tell you how much I fucking love Mile O’Brien because he is so unabashedly smart and yet so firmly rooted in the working class. (Which I think is why they keep matching him with Julian, because the contrast is so pronounced.)

It’s time for some Detective Odo in Shadowplay! Dax and Odo go to a village where peole are mysteriously vanishing. Sadly, it’s not murder, it’s that the village is the Matrix, and the Matrix is glitching. That whole plot is pretty straightforward. And then we get Kira and her main squeeze and something about gambling debts as the B plot to fill out the episode. The big take-home from the episode is a little more information about the Dominion and how bad they are–and a fun little thought exercise about if hologram people are actually real people–artificial intelligences.

Odo + Kids is my favorite combo, I think. Odo gets along so well with kids because he basically treats them like they’re tiny adults.

My headcanon for this episode, by the way, is that every 30 years now someone will go back to the planet, do the maintenance on the holographic projector, and let the little colony of hologram AI people continue to evolve.

It’s an okay episode.

In Playing God, Dax has a Trill initiate to teach. There’s some background Star Trek bullshit plot that involves O’Brien dealing with a vermin infestation and then some kind of pocket universe thingy bob that wants to eat the station. Mostly it’s there to let Dax expand on her background a bit and bounce off the nervous student. Though the most fascinating part is seeing Jadzia’s resentment toward Curzon; it’s always cool to see the Trill interacting with their previous lives.

The number one thing to love about this episode is the return of the Klingon Street Food Restaurant and its totally amazing, singing proprieter. The rest is a lot of good character work for Terry Farrell.

Oh, and also this:

Kira: It’ll be like stepping on ants.

Odo: I don’t step on ants, Major.

What a good. Anyway, it’s a good episode if you want Dax development, very meh otherwise. And the development of Dax as a character doesn’t feel as raw or immediate as it did, say, for Odo in The Alternate because it’s more about her revealing events of her past than reckoning with concrete effects in the present. This might also be because Jadzia is a kind of understated character; I do feel like her discussion with Sisko where she struggles with not wanting ot be like Curzon, and then realizing the Curzon might have had a point, and then figuring out her own way to make the same statement without being a total dick is important. But it’s easy to lose when there’s a lot of louder stuff going on in the episode.

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Wish List 2019

This is not a hint or me begging. Just for them who are interested. Will update it if I discover a burning desire for anything else before Christmas. (Or if a gift is received, I will remove it from the list.)

  1. Baby Boom bluetooth speaker
  2. Ernesto’s 2020 Calendar
  3. Bluetooth Poké Ball
  4. Smartwool Light Hiking Crew Socks size large (womens) or medium (mens)
  5. Nintendo Switch
  6. Generally fun non-hiking socks that will fit someone who wears a men’s 7.5 shoe and has fat calves
  7. Arden Shakespeares (third edition): King Henry IV Part 1, King Henry IV Part 2, Twelfth Night, The Tempest
  8. Control (the game) for Xbox One
  9. Smith Tempo sunglasses with Green Mirror lenses plus spare set of clear lenses
  10. Blue Light Glasses
  11. Alamo Drafthouse gift cards
  12. Barnes and Noble or Tattered Cover gift cards
  13. Donations to Ernesto’s Sanctuary for Syrian Cats
  14. Donations to Raices
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[Movie] Jojo Rabbit

I don’t think there are a whole lot of directors I’d trust to make a funny movie that involves Nazis, but Taika Waititi has earned it. Though now I keep wondering: a) Has Mel Brooks seen this movie? and b) Did he love it as much as I hope he did? Because Jojo Rabbit is fucking hilarious, and there are a few scenes that are just straight out of the Mel Brooks playbook. But it’s also incredibly uncomfortable to watch at times, and heartbreaking. Which is how it should be, I think.

Jojo Rabbit is about a ten-year-old German boy named Johannes in the waning days of World War II. Johannes is part of the Hitler Youth, wants to be a good Nazi, and has Adolph Hitler (played by Taika Waititi himself) as his imaginary friend. After accidentally blowing himself with a grenade at what’s effectively Nazi Boy Scout Camp, Jojo despairingly concludes he’ll never get to go to war and die gloriously for Germany, so he’ll have to do what he can for the cause at home. But then he discovers that his mother has been hiding a Jewish girl named Elsa in the walls of their house, and he has to make some tough decisions.

I’ve already said that this movie is funny, so I don’t need to go on and on about it. Explaining all the jokes is not something we need to do–though I think it’s worth noting that some of the best moments of humor are ones I also found deeply uncomfortable because there is, obviously, so much Nazi imagery in this movie. Taika Waititi playing a ten-year-old’s mental vision of Hitler, going from cheerful and puppyish to deeply threatening and angry when Jojo starts to lose his faith is something to behold. There is so much in this movie about the indoctrination of children that took place, the absolutely ridiculous propoganda that props up authoritarian figures, and the death cult of fascism. While it treats the subjects with humor, it also never lets you forget that this shit actually happened and is still happening, that it’s both ridiculous from the outside view and deeply destructive and terrible. It’s a movie that asks via Elsa and Jojo’s mother Rosie how someone can be saved from this indoctrination, when there are only a few tentative voices to speak out against the collective removal from reality. Rosie is afraid to tell her son anything, though she does her best to remind him of who he was before the Nazi’s started to take him away from her. At one point, Elsa tells Jojo that he’s not really a Nazi; he’s a young boy that wants to put on a costume and be part of a club. She’s both mocking him and offering him a bridge out of the ideological tar pit he’s mired in, if he can bring himself to take it.

So particularly in that aspect, Jojo Rabbit is a social commentary that is relevant to the modern world.

Elsa is a great character; she’s someone fighting to survive at all costs, and manages Jojo by threatening him rather than trying to appeal to humanity it’s not immediately apparent he has. Her moments of conversation with Rosie, when they both are quietly at their most hopeless, show two women figuring out how to make it through another day. Rosie is also wonderful; she’s trying to save her son and also keep him safe from her own decisions, and also be a single mom. She and Jojo claim his father is off fighting for Germany, while Jojo’s fellow Nazis claim he’s a traitor.

I think the main complaint to have about Jojo Rabbit is that it doesn’t really touch on the true horror of war or the Holocaust; the closest we get is at one point Elsa tells Jojo that the last she ever saw of her parents, they were being put on a train; they were sent to a place that no one ever returns from. It’s a weirdly shy and bloodless way to refer to mass murder, and I’m still not sure why that decision was made. Maybe it’s because we’re really seeing most of the movie through Jojo’s eyes (which might be why the color story is so picture-book-like); in the sea of propoganda that Jojo and his fellows are swimming in, going to war is an abstract goal and Germany is Totally Winning. Which is why the few scenes of any kind of brutality or dirtiness–when the other Hitler Youth try to get Jojo to kill a rabbit, when Jojo sees the people who have been hanged, when there’s a truckload of wounded soldiers coming back from the war who are dirty and bloody–seem almost out of place. They’re not something Jojo can really process.

That might be why I wasn’t actually expecting the emotional gut-punch that the film ultimately delivers. Beneath the brightly-colored production design (which is at times almost cartoonish), it asks what good people should do in times like these. There’s a moment early on in the film when Rosie and Jojo are walking through the town together and they see other Germans who have been publicly hanged, flagged with pronouncements that they are traitors.

Jojo: What did they do, mama?

Rosie: What they could.

I won’t go into spoiler territory, but Jojo Rabbit offers that acts of heroism are not big, or flashy, or particularly glorious.  That small acts of resistance have meaning.

I really liked the movie and am going to be thinking about it for quite some time to come, but I definitely don’t think it’s going to work for everyone. I’ll also note that there’s a lot of ableist language in it (Jojo becomes disabled after the aforementioned “blowing himself up with a grenade” thing and living in a society that obviously hates physical imperfection) and a lot of racist and anti-Semitic slurs. Par for the course when the topic is Nazis, but also not stuff I expect everyone to be fine with going into their ear-holes.

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deep space nine rewatch

DS9 Rewatch: Season 2, Episodes 8-10

Necessary Evil is a damn good episode, I think. Two connected murder (or in Quark’s case, attempted murder) mysteries running in parallel, one in the DS9 present, one in the past that’s told in flashbacks. It’s an episode with such solid character work for both Odo and Kira, explaining their friendship, expanding it, and then ultimately troubling it. I think what makes it so good is that while the “bad guys” of the episode get locked up, to Odo’s professional satisfaction, the perpetrator of the original murder that caused all of these events turns out to be Kira. And when she explains it, in all the complexity of Bajor being a planet occupied by a hostile force, you can tell that Odo can’t really say that she’s wrong… even if at the same time he’s incredibly troubled by being faced with the darker reality of who Kira is and the fact that she lied to him–and caused him to unwittingly lie for her.

Really, it’s so good. It’s also fun to just learn how Odo came to be the security chief on the station, which is another gross complexity because he’s being used to do Dukat’s dirty work, while Odo steadfastly refuses to do anything but a good job as defined by his own moral code. The station looks so different in the flashbacks, and so do Odo and Kira; it’s like the appearance of another lifetitme rather than just a few years before.

This is one of my favorites of the season so far, to be honest.

Which is followed by the solidly meh Second Sight. Sisko meets a mysterious love interest alien lady. Turns out that she’s the psychic projection of another dude’s actual wife. Except the psychic projection version of her is such a completely different person that she doesn’t remember anything about her real life. And the reason she’s psychically projecting is because her husband is a self-obsessed terraformer who has had about a zillion wives before her, and lost them all because that marriage ain’t big enough for a woman and his ego.

So like dude. Seriously. Stop getting married if you’re self-aware enough to admit you’re the problem.

Except the alien lady can’t just leave him because her species mates for life.

Which again, dude. If you know you’re that much of an asshole, maybe don’t marry someone who’s going to be stuck with you forever? In an act of self-sacrifice that he basically makes into a giant monument to how great he is, the terraformer guy basically dives into a star so he cacks it and his wife will stop trying to escape him by astrally projecting so hard that it’s killing her. It says a lot about how done everyone is with this guy that no one seems sad or the slightest bit upset that he basically commits suicide live on the comm channel with them.

I take back my meh. The more I think about this episode, the more I actively hate it.

Sanctuary is a refugee story. Three million aliens from the gamma quadrant show up, looking for a home. They think they’ll find that home on Bajor, pointing out that they’re farmers and they can help with the famine issues the planet is happening. Bajor says no, with the Bajorans certain they’ll end up having to take care of the refugees with resources already stretched thin.

This is a construction where you can’t necessarily blame the Bajorans; they’re recovering from the damage the Cardassians have done to their world. They’re already having famine problems and needing aide from the Federation. So it’s a decent set up for a conflict that doesn’t necessarily have a right answer… even if I think it’s a lot easier to sympathize with the gamma quadrant aliens when the Bajorans seem so cold… and then blow up a refugee vessel that tries to land. On the other hand, you can hardly blame the Bajorans for being frightened and suspicious when they’ve only just retaken control of their planet.

I think if we wanted to see it as a parallel on Earth, it works if you consider refugees going to a country that already has severe problems with famine and the like. It definitely shouldn’t be seen as a parallel to, say, refugees trying to come to the US, when we have a ridiculous amount of resources as a country and are just being selfish, xenophobic assholes who are trying to use “but we have to take care of our own people [who we don’t actually give a shit about because then we’d have to tax the rich oh noes]” as a shield.

It’s all right as an episode. Can’t say that I really want to see it again, ever.

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Mile Hi Con Schedule

Wow, it’s already time for Mile Hi Con! This has been one hell of a year. I’ll be at the convention Saturday and Sunday. And here’s my schedule:

Saturday:

  • Pride on the Pages; 11:00 at Wind River B
  • Group Reading and Discussion: Weird Westerns; 12:00 at Wind River A
  • Reading Game; 14:45 at Grand Mesa

Sunday: 

  • Fans Getting Active; 10:00 at Bristlecone
  • Writing Fan Fiction: The Good, the Bad, and the Other Stuff; 13:00 at Mesa Verde A
  • Gentle Art of Verbal Disagreement; 14:00 at Mesa Verde A

Hope to see you there! When I’m not doing panels, I will most likely be hanging around in the ground floor lobby. Feel free to stop by and say hello, and if you’d like a book signed, I’d be happy to do that for you.